Responsibility

There is a concept misunderstood by most it would seem as so few of us understand what we are actually supposed to do with it.
I for one have been forced to look at it under recent circumstances (see www.desperatefilmmaker.com my video blog site) and have come up with some interesting conclusions.
Many people are confused and think this means accountability, doing what you say, doing the right or moral socially acceptable thing, or ethics, which are themselves lofty subjects.

Responsibility is looking into any given situation and seeing the truth of what you are actually responsible for. Not what others think you did or are blaming on you, not the broad "woe is me" attitude, maker of "I should haves" or "why does this always happen to me?". No none of that attitude will bring you to the truth that will set you free. And that is what I am talking about here, the truth that will set you free.
Dramatizing some past problem is not going get you there.
Blaming others for your failure is not going to get you there.
Accepting failure and apathy and degradation will only sap the life out of you.
But looking at what you have done for real and being honest with yourself that is it.

Being honest with yourself really may be beyond the current scope of understanding for many, but there are those of us who can see through the veil of consideration to the truth within us.
I was writing down in a specific format the things I have done that were not ethical in the past. Which at the outset seemed fruitless, looking into the hurt and failure to be accountable in my sordid past. Just tedious self flagellation or so I thought. But as I looked into it for real, as I wrote down those things, I realized that many of those things were beyond my ability to confront before. Skeletons in my closet that under scrutiny I realized much less damaging and frightening than I thought. Which is where I started feeling better.
My responsibility to myself is to look at the truth of what I had done or not done and not take someone else's opinion for it. That has caused me to allow myself to be suppressed by others almost to my own end.
Don't let anyone point out how you failed them.

Never let anyone convince you that you aren't good enough, not worthy or otherwise degrade you.

Those are the very cowards afraid to look into their own closets as the skeletons will probably consume them.

Look at them in the truth of what they do and say. Do they have anything good to say or is it mostly bad news?
Chances are you are dealing with someone who doesn't even know who they are. And the only way they can control you is this belittling and "make you wrong for everything" attitude that will account for sickness and misery all around them. Even in their own body.
Control is not a bad thing but when the controller is blaming and belittling he is just a coward yelling through a loudspeaker.

Responsibility is seeing the truth for yourself and not making others wrong for your weakness.

You suppressors, taking things that don't belong to you, blaming everyone around you, holding others to a line of conduct that you yourself cannot even fathom.

Yes I mean you.

I dare you to look into your own conduct and not cave in.
Write down all the times you belittled someone or threatened someone to get what you wanted.
Every time you hurt someone.
I dare you to write them all down. And when you think you are done, you are not done. There is always more.

Pitiful, pathetic and afraid, but a menace to those around him as sure as poison gas.

Can you be responsible?
If you can face your own wrongdoings for real, then this is not you.
But don't fool yourself you suppressors out there.
We are onto you, and we can take you out with a word.

Responsibility